Hi (:
My name is Chair and I rock.
Seventeen candles on the 28th September '09. I ♥ cocktails, cocaine, and clubbing.

PARAMORE
is the bomb.
you know you love me
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at 10:51 PM

What a fcuk day
Aimlesss dream i had . Aimlesss in everything .

2More hour and say goodbye to NOV !



Sometimes the only thing you're looking for, is the one thing you can't see .



at 7:35 PM




Yesterday
Went out with manuela to old folks, in th end . I'm just so HAPPY luhh . She knows why, gods know whys . muHAHAHAH ! Then went to 姑姑 &姑丈 niche . Sat there and chatted with manuela . Talking about the world and someone in her class . Seriously fcuktard man . Laughs*
Chat i think almost an hour or something, and left . And bus to kovan macs . Awwsss, i feel the world moving again . I finally get to taste mac again . But is fcuk way difficult for me to eat -.- After eating, went mall inside, actually getting books from there, in th end ran over to san bookshop to borrow . And Manuela machiam ******* ! Laughs*
I borrow one book, she too . Home and read .
Err err, is such a ... book . I seriously don'tknow how to carry on reading .
Make me laugh till jaw pain . lmao




I'm getting better alr .
I can feel the world turning again . SO HAPPY ! LOL!




And read if you're alway hanging at kovan heartland mall .

If you were to go to kovan minoshi shop at level2 next to bata .
Please fcuking don't get serve by one cheena girl, sharp in talking . Fcuking small action she have . Bloody don't ever get thing from her .

Wanna talk big to my mum, please see how much you weight luh hor . Come to me with your ass on, there's no need to come one big bush to talk to my mum . You this 小人. Not happy with me , ask your kampong cheena chicken to come talk to me . Stop and zip your fcuking cheena mouth . Before you make me go sunua ! Never provoke me till my head ! I make you hard in life with work . Fcuker cheena chicken .! #(@&#(@)&#(@&()*#()&




Nothing about the question why .

People take 1hour to know a person
But People take 1year to forget a person .

But I'll use all my life to forget you .



at 10:46 PM

Huili come my house afternoon . Then follow by aunty . She cook my favouriteee MEE HUN KWEEY !!! <333 I miss the taste, but somehow i can't taste anything, eating make me go gaga !
8plus sent aunty to bustop, then acc huili awhile and off she went to find her DADDY . lol !

Been rotting at home for 3DAY alr . Ohman, i'm dying of boredness and hungryness ! lol !

HAPPPY BIRTHDAYY KEITH HO ZHENG YUxD




Somehow, something is still missing !



at 11:32 PM

Stupid fcuk throat ! &#*@&*(&3
Make me can't speak, can't eat nor drink .
Making my life so difficult, but at th same time i'm losing some weight ! xDD

Still feel like crying, as i'm so hungry . Food infront me but yet can't eat _|_ _|_ _|_ ! Stomach getting more and more sound alr . Haven been eating thing for last few day alr . Just Plain waterrrrr . Ohdear, i wanna kill myself now .

I WANNA MAC AND LASKA FIRST !!!! ROLF ROFL ROFL !!!!!!
Going mad thinking of mac !!! &#&#&@*@(@*&$*)
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!! Stop toturing meeeeeee THROAT ! I'm going crazy alr .
My mind went blank since 2-3day ago . Mind is all about my throat, faster get well . No infection alr . Heal pleaseeee !!


Been so many day i haven been going out ):
I miss all my friends!
Thanks for all th calls ah, but sorry i can't talk much . Teeheeheee ! *Please understand*


Adore is the way of love ?




Cries in a distance
Can't stop the tremble
Im just awaiting my turn

Hiding will never
Save me forever
The guns gonna get me for sure

Dear God I pray why won't you be my friend
Come to me and take my hand
Like mama would say
Everything will be okay

All I hear is 3 2 1
The scream from the guns
And then 1 by 1
No one gets to run
Someones dad or mom
Sister, brother and son
No... no...

All I feel is 1 2 3
My tears start to bleed
Smell of roses on my feet
I feel sore
I fall...
I call
I crawl



at 12:34 PM

I shall take my previous previous setence as a joke .
I never want to get sick again .
Torturing meeee .


at 10:09 AM

My head spinning
My throat hurt till core
My whole body ache
My body Shervering
Feeling so damn Tired
I can't sleep well due to my throat, is killing my life .
..
...
....
.....
And body temp 38.2/c .
Rise more rise more . Haven been going sick for a long time .


I'm awake every 1hour .
My fcuking throat killing meeeeee T.T
Feel like sucide now due to my throat . Is seriously making me insanee in pain .


EDIT EDIT 10.00PM

Thanks manuela for bringing medicine for me xDDD THANK YOU VERY MUCH ! <3
Throat is still killing me ): And head spinning ):


Minmin thanks for putting herbal tea at my house door when i am downstair . THANKYOU VERY MUCHH !

From 38.2 to 39.7 then to 38.5 ((:
Thanks for medicine manuela ..

Being sick is a good thing . waHAHAHAHAH ! I can see who's concern about me (: (:

I'm off to eat apple (:


My tears drops
but he wun know

Giving up in progress .
I'm tired of waiting for you to call or msgs me
Let happy moment stop at that day .
I'm trying not to think . I'm trying very hard alr .


at 11:03 PM

Met Dev and LG .
We 3 are insane man .
1 Stress of assigment
1 Stress of someone over something
1 Stress of something over someone

This's how life can go .


Rang him, but blabla . So decided to forget it alr, Since thing turn out to be liddat . I'm speechless . So just let natural take it course . *Am i right ? O.O
Sighs Sighs Sighs ! Maybe this's what you wanted, so just treat as we don't know each other before .

My throat hurts
All because i puke too much ! ):





If we never met, then thing would go like that .
The pain i have, when you left me sore
I dare not brood over it anymore, Is my worst nightmare ever .

Blame myself for knowing you


at 9:14 PM

Worst nightmare .
Can't sleep for 2night alr . Fcuk that shit .
Mindset can't stop thinking . ROFL! I'm bloody going insane .
I need a doctor to help with wash my brain now .

Both GPT is sick in the moment ): Get well soon .







用一段感情换一个朋友



at 8:39 AM

Went meeting Tzewei's LAOGONG. Mall to have food . Then walk ard and off to sengkang O.O
4plus went LG house to swim xD Is like finally .! And sadded is Darling can't make it ): DAR get well soon alright (:
Swim machiam less den 45min -_- Then went steam bathe ! SHUNAAA! Iloveyou SHUNAAA! xD lol ! Shuna chichatting all th way . Luckily is both of us didn't faint inside after so long .
Slack at LG house till 9plus . Otw home L call me .








L ask me out to drink . So i ask huili to tag along with me .
L went to fetch huili, Then i bus to meet them . As is near .
Serangoon pub to drink . Chivas O.O Huili become mad after few cups -.-
And i also don'tknow what's wrong with me, First time in my life drinking and totally get drunk . Went in and out toilet to pukeee . Then after sending huili to cab. L acc me, i puke again when walking . Jitao no strength .
Bloody hell make me walk so long way .
I did something that is fcuking so WRONG last night ! I feel so bloody disgusted about what i did last night

W H A T ' S W R O N G W I T H M E !! ?? I C A N ' T B E L I E V E W H A T I D I D L A S T N I G H T .!!!!!
I h a t e t h a t k i s s !!!!

&My fcuking stomach feeling so upset .!







EDITEDIT ! 11:09PM

I can't get to sleep since i came back .
My mind full of yesterday stuff, Fcuk . Am i able to overcome it ?
Is my worst nightmare for my whole entire 17 years .

I can't get to bed, Reason: About what happen and secondly i'm hungry .
Haven been eating for whole day . ):


at 10:28 PM

I'm going mad alr, HE ASK ME OUT !

Update when i'm back !


at 10:44 PM

Morning Denny came fetching me for rounding to woodland, and then fetch me back hougang ! Slack at hougang meet up with sean . And ended up walking back nearby my house, and he meetup with jacob and friend ! lmao !
They playing their basketball happily, and i sitting there listening to my song . lmao ! Till they walk to th shelter chitchat ! OHMAN! awhile later my fcuking hp low batt ! #(@&#()&@(*#@(#*()@

They still can laugh when i say i wanna go home and charge my hp ! -_-

4plus went home O.O
And friendster friend came back ! Ohshit! what the heck !


I'm off to work online alr ! xD


at 11:14 AM

YESTERDAY
Finally get to see Manuela ! xD
She came my house then down for dinner O.O Fcuk the bitter ground, 12345-100piece of bitterground ! lol
Ate finish up to my house, play laptop . Take photo . And DARLING talk to me in msn . muHAHAH! He machiam an idiot ! lol
LOL ! Stupid Manuela play her stupid cabal ! Opss* SHHH*! lol
And i trying to figure out about facebook ! lmao ! I need a stick. lol ! 10plus sent Manuela down for cab ! xD










Manuela, Cheerup and don't let their talking bother you too much !
Waiting for 24Dec xD ! Me miss you muchh ! Laughs*

PEIYI, Get well soon alright (:
TZEWEI, Don't Think tooo Much alright (:





Falling apart


at 7:06 PM

Fcuk You Friendster !
Might be deleting away Friendster soon .
Fcuk Fcuk Fcuk !


Actullly meeting co afternoon but, I'm lazy ! lmao !
And manuela is coming to meet me ! muHAHAHAHAHAHAH ! But till now no calls nor msgs from her ! &(#@&(#)@

WOWW, many thing are so happening recently . Make me go nutz .


I'm all alone at home since afternoon ):
Alone in my room emoooo and listening to all my EMOOO songs ! xD







What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin to do


at 9:44 PM

Ohman .
Fcuk the friendster first under maintanance for 1day, and then secondly deleted away my friend list friend ! PCB ! Can say everyone tio this ! lmao ! Making me KANPUA dulan now .

Shall not mention who .
Stop being so buay ba can ?
you making me more and more detest you alr .
You FcukFace, FcukName, FcukMouth, FcukNose, FcukYourWholeBody luhhs . NNB!
Since your BF so rich, ask your bf bring you go rounding luhs . Why must ask my friend . KNNB ! Forget it, Shall not rant about *** here . Rot my blog !
&PLEASE , OWN $$ PAY $$ ! You lokui !





Thing are getting fine . Thanks L for everything .
Is a short terms, but at least we did before yea .
Thanks for everything . <3
Now you found yourself job, Let it stable alright .
Umms, Hopee Hope blablablabla wun happen .



Apart for few hour,
Still O.O

LLJK ! xD xD xD

All i wanna say is
I miss spending time with him ):


at 1:14 AM

What's the fcuking problem with the friendster man . !






Can i say i don't miss you at all ?
Can i say i don't love you at all ?
Can i say i don't know you at all ?
Can i say i don't bother you at all ?

Can i have you back to th past .?


Looking at time pass is a tragic .
I can't stop my mind thinking of you .

Night come, And is always the time i'm searching for you .!

Living in a world with no AIR .




Imiss you LLJK!



at 1:21 AM


HAPPY
BIRTHDAY

CHUA
TZE
WEI !



AND LOOK MORE ! SCROLL DOWN! (:

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TIME CHECK : 10.00PM








Met my beloved darling to town and plaza sing just now .
Town ate breakfast/lunch . xD Walk and bought something for my beloved LAOGONG *CHUA TZEWEI (:
Then mrt to PlazaSing, as gektiang wanna find her ex-boss there . Poor Gk, Leg swollen. muHAHAHA! Rest more yah (: Walk-in-interview at one of the shop there /= Hope i get in . lol So mrt back serangoon, RAINING HEAVILY ! Ohman, And fcuk that pud of mudwater. #&(@&#(@*(#@( Lol, Took 315 to voideck slack. Photo Photo .

FINALLY CHUA TZEWEI called . And i'm funny enough to take cab. IS ONLY 2 BUSTOP AWAY and i FCUKING TOOK CAB! -___- Can't blame, due to the rain . muHAHAH! And my poor darling sms and told me, SHE DROP HER STUFF THAT SHE BOUGHT JUSTNOW! Awws! CheerrCheer!

Ohman, Forget take picture with birthday girl luhhs . T.T
Last long with him yah . He duibuqi you, Come and tell me man .
Hope you like the stuff i bought you (: Thought is like not expensive yah . (: <3




















And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly

I need you , need your help
I can't do this myself
You're the only one
who can undo
What I've become

Trying to ingore
A life of hiding my sin




at 3:21 PM

Tmr is LAOGONG big day (: Hope she enjoy .



3Day 3Day 3DAYS alr .
So maybe AGAIN, i've to giveup .
Happy moment always wun last .


You use to call me up if you're ard Ave8
ask if wanna meetup .
But now no msg no calls no NOTHING
You slowly fade away without knowing .
Guess this is what life are .
*Waiting for you to sms me
*Waiting for you to call me
*Waiting for you to msn me
*Waiting for you to ask me out !

Been waiting and waiting, Still no sign of you .
I gladly accept the fate .

When i need you,
You disaapear .
When i don't need you,
You appear .

Ohman
Is like a joke .

Loving you is harder than you know .







&&& I feel like laughing out loud , QinAiDe decided not to go for abortion . (:
Javiour take good care of her alright :D





Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go .
Not loving you is harder than you know

And if you don't want me than
I guess I'll have to go

Leaving always driving me crazy


at 11:16 PM

2Days 2Days alr .
Sighs.

This goes on, i might go IMH .




I MISS YOU!
LLLLuuuuccccaaaassss LLLLeeeeeeee


at 3:41 PM

Everything back to the same spot again .
2rd time .
2RD TIME .

2RD TIME .

Feeling of hurt came back .
Why must it be yesterday ? WHY WHY WHY ? Why must i saw you with her . WHY WHY WHY ?

My memories stop at 5nov2oo8 and 6nov2oo8!

Quarell with mum over some matter, and is alr making me insane alr .
And now plus him . What the shit is this .

I've started to go mute since last night .
So don't bother to call me . Cause i wun speak .
Sms me and see whether you are lucky enough to see my reply .

I also bet you wun ask me out again . Then lets just forget .



Will be MIA`ING tgt with huili. So Byes




How can I miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time I guess I'll go away
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain
So where's the fire? You've become the rain


Harder then you know.



at 10:55 AM

^@%@^@&@(@*@^%@&#@(#(#&%$&@()(!^!%!&)$*(#&*
WHATEVER LUHS! NBCB! PCB!

FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCuK FCUK FCUK FCUK!
FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK!
FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK!
FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK!
FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK FCUK!



Can't sleep at night, as needed to wait for LUCAS LEE phone calls.
From 1am to 5am. FINALLY , He call. Chatted awhile, His voice machiam want die alr still call me, listen dao pekcek. I might as well sleep. And he that alibaba asking me 8plus go down his sintua to find him as is only opposite my block. Hello, i'm scare of those priest or whatever god , still ask me go down see you dance all this. ARE YOU MAD ? lol

Meeting my another 2love later at point.
YEAHSYEAHS! And if they can make it, will ask them to acc me to find lucas . muHAHAHAH!

This few days had been hanging with HIM
The way we bond our friendship make me laugh .
Abusing is the words.

The more closer the more danger,
As this happen in me with him.
Wrong idea he gave me, and make me fall for him.
Everyday w/o fail, he came my block looking for me, and telling me all his
weak point. Then days goes by, feeling came. #&(@*()@
And now, making me so numb.

But i'm starting to let go. I don't want to feel awarkard facing him.






TAG REPLIES


manuela: AAWW!!! i didn't know that u are so sweet!!! yeah!!!
ME: LOL!

CATHE: HAHAHA:D Hi cutiepie. enjoy yourselve at play uh? (:
ME: CUTIEPIE! Umms, not so. HAHAHAHS

vin: cheerup la
vin: (:
ME: O.O Thanks.

JOJO: hi, i am keith frenz. with charles their wan (: seeya again add u in msn (:. haha. dun mind rites
ME:?? O.O Ohs, okays. Don't mind (:

minmin <3: cheerup darling. We miss u. pls cum out hor on 4nov. okok ? love uuu
ME: Darling. Missing you cliques too. Takecare .

alex: stop emoing lehx. machiam tlking to wall seh
ME: I didn't emo ahs. DOTS!

tzewei.: SMACK YOUR BUTT! no cry no cry. we care for you de.
ME: muHAHAHAH! Thanks.

keith: eh. siao liao eh. tues night we go rounding. so 11plus downstair same place! bu jian bu san! love
ME: mUHAHAHA! I go alr, so stop kpkb alr ahs.! lmao!

gene: thx so much :D
ME: Not a problem. Ring me anytime if you've problem (:

zw: update ur tag pls. lolz. cya ltr then. :D
ME: Reply now alr luhs.

Angelawong: happie bfdaue in advance darling
ME: Thanks darling. <3

gene: hahah , im so touch by ur post . ps abt ytd . next tym take more pics with u , was reallly moodless
ME: HAHAHA, I understand. Okays. Cheeerruppppp!!

P[u]NkLoSeR­™: Happy Birthday
keith: happppy birthday !
minmin<3: DEAREST SISTER. shen ri kuai le. loveyou. Enjoy ur dae out. :D
kiefer: happie bdae ger
jasmine: huppiex burthdaiie darlling. lub uue.
alvin: happy birthday girl. tc
manuela: Happy birthdayy gal!! be happy always ya!! :D
gene: happy bdaeeeeeeeeeee
ME: Thanks Thanks Thanks. <33

tzewei.: happyyyyyy birthday laopo, not sad birthday k.!!
tzewei.: wa! wad upset for present. so ironic! me and peii make u ki siao ltr in the pool! muahahaa. ((:
ME: Thanks laogong. Ironic? What a chim english man. -___- muHAHAH

Freda: Relink. (:
ME: Relink alr (:

.someone.: oh. u slim dwmn ? saw u at hougang last nites
ME: O.O Nope, i didn't slim down. lol. Eh, Ya i was at hougang last night .You're ?

zhixian: tattooo crazy, still wan touchup ur back tatto?? if wan call me k. seeu .
ME: Oh, XIAN XIAN! lol. Ums, see first, will update you soon. Tc













EDIT EDIT, 11.06PM

Came back not long, 2love bought me belated cake. Thanks.
Lucas Keep rushing me . Fcuk. Jitao run from point to block 910. U#(@)#*(@
Reach his face kan sibei black. He say too tired. lol.
Whatever, No attitude to me that's good alr.

Finger swollen like nb now. All thanks to LUCAS LEE!
Waited for 2hours, he's still busy with his sintua, make me stay there like fcuking noob. BLOODY MOODLESS ALR, Still make me dulan. Whatever luhs.

He say: Ask you come, you want reward, never ask you out, you say i never call you out. muHAHAH! Hard to please man! *Ofcause i'm hard to please . Giggles.* lol
But seeing him, my mood turn to normal. lol!



I just miss the day we ton. muHAHAHA!










走的路好辛苦。


at 8:31 PM

Blast yesterday!

Thanks GPT for everthing. Ilove you 2
4plus to Tzewei's house, Slack till 8pm. Home bathe change, And went out to meet dev ahwile, Saw that LJ guy at point again -__-
10plus, meet huili then up to ahboi house.
Thanks HUILI FOR THE OERO-CHEESECAKE AND PRESENT! <33
Thanks AHBOI MUM for the RED-PACKET. <33
THANKS my 2DARLING FOR EVERYTHING . <3333
Thanks Thanks Thanks.

Slack at ahboi house till 1am, Then walk from 916 to 910 to find lucas @ his sintua(:
HuiLi that mad woman play her daddy. LOL!
HuiLi say Lucas look like girl when putting hairband. muHAHAHAH!
Ton there till wanna die alr, And stupid lucas can't stop irrarited me, And endup i keep abusing him. And he too, NB press my hand so hard just to take back cigg . Huili saw someone dancing , and lucas wanna follow. Huili ask lucas to do MRBEAN and we laugh like OMFG. Especially HUILI! -_- Like sot teh, Huili looking at that guy dancing, Lucas that idiot keep giving me act cute face #*#**#&#*

Finally strike 5.30AM, Went toilet, and sent huili to bus. And went up with lucas, He play his ps2 game, Got games enough alr lohs. PSP and PS2! Fcuker. muHAHAHAH! lol. And i'm sleeping he stare machiam want fight!
He slept till 8plus, NBCB, Snore! Slap,Pinch,Beat diedie mai wakeup! Make me cannot go home, Awake awhile, and slept back. &#@(&#*(@&#(0
Home at 9am, Bathe and sleeeeeeeep! AND i can't sleep due to CALLS!!!

4plus meet sean, 6plus meet ahboi. Home at 7plus!


Wanna cock up with me right now by following my step in posting right. Go ahead!
Act till lidat, might as well WHATEVER WHATEVER!



Biting his hands.
Lying his shoulder.
Holding his hands.
Abusing him. *HiakHiakHiak
Lending my hand to let him sleep, And made my hand cramps.
Warm hug of his.
Him massage my hand he made till blueblack .
Alot During 1night .

All thanks to HIM! ROFL!
Stop acting cute to me pleasee! LMAO!





I dare not think too far, Cause he's just a clone of his
With him, i mistaken him as HIM. Thats all.

Realise that new year start a new memories to cover your past memoriess.




at 12:42 AM

OMFG!
REIGN, thanks man. Even not a close friend say this to me, I feel like crying, I just need a wish from you, And you say will get me something on 13nov when you see me. Awws. THANKS REIGN! <333 But seriously noneed.

Upset during birthdday is a wonderful present for this year (:



Meeting GPT for swimming later afternoon, Can't wait (:

Update when i'm back .




如果有一天，
命运让我在一次相遇。
而你的答案还缺少了回应，
或许你不知道
其实我还在等待

哪一个奇迹。。。


at 1:45 AM

HAPPY BELATED CHARMAINE


Kovan at 4-5 plus with huili and manuela.
Slack till 8plus, bus-ed home.
Mum bought crab and some dishes, Thanks mum <3

Ate till 9plus, bloated till wanna die alr, So decided to go cycle and meetup with them awhile, Then roam ard. Think of GENE`AHKOR, so msgs him out. Cycle to find him. Glad he's abit fine. Chitchatted and i know he doesn't have mood to take photo, but he's being force by me! Ps ahs.! Long time since i wanted to take photo with AHKOR alr. Can't blame*
AHKOR, rmb ah, NO EMO PLEASE !(:

*Just wish that she give ahkor a chance, and also to herself. Do cherish him, he's the best ahkor i ever met. (:









T.T Feeling so wrong


at 11:07 PM

Heart Wrenching!

He went MIA again! _|_
Never MIA will die isit ? -.-


Rotting alr! Imiss my NORISHA ):




I'll keep my heart with yours.


at 12:12 AM

Heart wreching! ):
Idk what to type. Awful is th words i can say now.


O.O Wtheck am i thinking now. !!!!
T.T T.T T.T T.T






9.30PM
I'm seriously insane/nutz alr.
Out of sudden chatting with my GPT, i cried -__-
Is a waste spending time with me and on me .




EUGENE AHKOR! Take time to heal alright!
Wanna go out slack msgs me . Me 24/Hr for you! (:

Don't smoke alr since you've quit!!!! Takecare ahs!!





Seeing you happy is what i want.
Seeing you living happy i'm alr content alr.
Your smile meant alot to me.